there was a quote SOMEWHERE towards the end. i tried to find it again and failed. anyway it's like 2 soldiers or whatever talking, and one of them says. the only thing that's worth paying attention to is the making of a decision. the rest is boring and doesn't really matter. i feel like that one idea could sum up the whole book, explain so much about why it's written the way it is. it explains the war paradox too... how i felt like it made the story more exciting and was kinda sad when it was over, even though i know that war is terrible and i shouldn't wish it on anybody. not even fictional characters. this book was great at presenting weird mental experiences like that. the whole reading of it was an experience that played with your mind. but i loved when they said lazlo jamf wasn't even real ?? haha, i'm pretty sure i read that. and i thought that was hilarious. like there was never anything special or physically altered about slothrop, like i thought at first. he was just some guy that was attracted to chaos. any additional distinction was invented. i would say that's postmodern, distrust of information and observation and etc. this book didn't always make me happy but i'm really, really glad that i read it. i hated that it was tough sometimes but i appreciate that about it, too. it's the first book i've read in a while that really made me work. it's a little screwed up and nonsensical and crazy and all over the place. and sometimes, boring as hell. but to me, that sounds like life. it is delivered to you imperfectly, communicating all kinds of things, not just a carefully selected handful. and i love it when a book delivers something more closely aligned to actual life ! i always think it's great, even if there's things included in it that i don't get. it gets me thinking about BIG things, things that move and connect outside of themselves, not something minor like a single detail in a single story. i MIGHT try to reread this book again at some point in my life. but god, not anytime soon. maybe in like 10 years.
ending observations ! please post. i might have missed some things, i was reading really fast at that point because i really, really wanted to be done
